I Think what to Think...?!!?

I think what to think!!!!

I realized after a long time that whatever I think before going to bed, I generally dream about that....which turned into a good or a bad dream....but mostly its about that....

So I was lying in the bed and was thinking what should I think that would give me a dreamy dream....and all of a sudden my whole life was converted into flashcards and started floating around me like windows-7....I have the liberty to choose anything I want.....

But right then, as I was brushing through those cards, I got a chance to have a glance at each one of them....every minute details were laid out there...it was like all my brain parts have opened their secrets to me.....

Then I separated them into two piles!!! one good and other bad!!! although I so wanted to ignore the bad pile....it kept flashing in front of me!!I so longed for a brain dustbin at that moment to flush out these cards...but that was not a possibility...

But in a way, for a very brief time, I lived almost my life again...saw all what I ever done right and wrong...how many people I have hurt in my life, how many people I have loved, and what exactly I have done till now that is beautiful and I am proud of!!!

Seeing my life flashing against my eyes for that very brief period made me think, I could have done better, I could have been at a better situation, but I had missed so much...

So instead of picking up a good memory flashcard for dream, I started thinking about the other cards of my life!!

But again while seeing all those flaws there, some cards started coming to me which had people I loved, times when I have laughed, times when I am taken care as a princess, and then at that very moment my life turned so beautiful and complete....I felt so lucky to have my loved ones always by my side, how much I love them....I really thanked God at that moment for such a beautiful and lucky life......

And with those beautiful thoughts I could see what life actually means, what we cannot control, and what we can always love....with my heart filled with love.....I finally fell asleep...into a beautiful and lovely dream....